THE ONE (05/2012)

For many nights
I've often wondered
What life would be
Without you

There are many times
When I'd wish you're here
Right by my side
There for me

You are the one
That I've always loved
You are the one
Whose smile brightens my day
You are the one
I've always had an eye on

Whenever I see you
I know that you're the one for me

Though it may seem false
I know that my love is true
Though you may not believe me
I know the way I feel about you

There are countless times 
When I'd dream of you
Right by my side,
There loving me

You are the one
That I've always loved
You are the one
Whose smile brightens my day
You are the one
I've always had an eye on

Whenever I see you
I know that you're the one for me
The one for me
I know very much
That you're the one for me.

OUTCAST (06/2012)

alone in the corner I sit
staring off into the distance
knowing that I'd never fit in
everyone else was talking to those similar

no one ever notices me
everyone is busy joking and chatting
no one ever looks in the corner
if they do they just look past me

finally, I find someone similar
someone who might understand me
however i'm too different and wierd
we notice each other in different lights

he along with everyone else ignores me
I try to talk but get nowhere
this is the curse of being different
the curse of being an outcast

an outcast is who I am
never will anyone notice me
those that I love and care about
just turn their backs and shun me

I dream that for once people would accept me
I dream that someone would love me
I dream of miracles that are impossible
I dream of a better life
I dream the one I love would love me back
until then I will remain in my corner
an outcast that never fits in
forever dreaming

HALL OF DARKNESS (12/2012)

In a dark hallway, I stand
Doors, shutting, all around me
Through the blackness come voices
Piercing the air with screams.

In the middle of chaos, I'm caught
Unable to find a way out
Unsure of what to do
Lost, trapped, within the terrible tempest.

Unnoticed, confused, helpless, I remain
Trapped within the devilish never-ending nightmare
Running in eternal circles
Still searching for a way out.

For hope, peace and understanding, I pray
Yearning for a guiding light
To illuminate the path out of the Hall of Darkness
To bring order and life back to me.

Secluded and lost, I'm forced to remain
Until the guardian, the dove, the hope comes
I am waiting, always waiting.
Where to go? What to do?

MORNINGS (12/2012)

Blaring noise, through the silence shouts
Sunlight, no mercy shows
Out of bed, I roll.
The dawn of a new day awaits

To the shower I rush
Hope to finish in time
So not to be late again
No time to brush

Out to the car I run
Only a couple of Pop-Tarts in hand
In the car the books are tossed
And time to get on the road again.

THE FOREST (12/2012)

Alone, through the forest I walk.
The trees were on fire
Reds, oranges, yellows lighting the way.

A gentle breeze parted my hair
Leading the trees in a dazing dance
Accompanied by a musical chorus.

Leaves fell as snow to the ground
A blanket of warmth coated the path.
Parting the leaves, I continue on.

Until an open meadow before me loomed
A lone log lay on the ground
To it I stroll, grateful for a rest.

On the tree limb I sit,
Quickly away my mind wonders
Dreams of a day I wouldn't be alone.

Time passes on and on.
The sun rises past the zenith in the sky
Before I return to earth.

To the sky, I turn
Without hesitation, I stand
Back through the woods I walk alone.

REALITY OF LIFE (09/2026)

Why am I here?
Where is the joy?
What is the point?
Do people really care?

Life likes to toy with me.
One moment I am standing on the mountain,
The next moment I have fallen off the cliff.
Where is the joy?

Life likes to fool me.
One moment I feel loved and cherished,
The next moment I feel abandoned and hated.
Do people really care?

Life likes to shove me.
One moment I feel like I can change things,
The next moment I feel helpless and dumb.
Why am I here?

Life likes to smother me,
One moment I am unstoppable and encouraged,
The next moment I am vulnerable and discouraged.
Why am I here?

Life likes to destroy me,
One moment I am healthy, fit, and happy,
The next moment I have pains, issues, and am depressed.
Why do I exist?

Life likes to be against me,
One moment I am enjoying creativity, joy, and freedom,
The next moment I feel shackled, joyless, and bland.
Just why?

I'm done trying to be strong.
I'm done trying to be hopeful.
I'm done trying to be understanding.
I'm done trying to be nice.

What's the point,
If everything in the end,
Will stab you in the back,
And just be a lie and a story.

The reality of life.
It's a construct.
It's a dystopia.
It's broken, always broken.